Sunday, August 18, 2019
Yesterday my husband comes pulling into the driveway - when he was supposed to be at work. First thing I thought was that his 93 yr old dad had finally passed. No. He left work, due to chest pains! So we get things together so I can drive him to the emergency room. Then we sit from 11:00 till around 4pm when they released him. Tests revealed no heart event. My diagnosis is ANXIETY. He'll see his cardiologist next week.
He has gotten himself into a tizzy about retiring. At first, he was all for it, until he realized that his numbers were off. Okay, so we'll have $1000 less a month. I know, that is a lot and can make the difference between a healthy retirement and barely scraping by, especially here in California. But what can you do? He's had it. He's allowed his boss-lady to totally screw him up, by retiring earlier than he would have. There are no jobs available for him to transfer to and she is going nowhere! He's so hell-bent to retire early that he is willing to take a menial job - just to get out.
Oh, we'll be fine. He will get a sizeable lump sum - we can pay off our dental bill.
The other part of the reality scare is that one day - it won't be anxiety. I won't think about that now.
I'm the calm one. He is all over the place lately. Even with the lesser income, I am not afraid. I've had to scrap to get by in my younger days; as a single mom with 3 sons. So I know how to do it. I admit, we'll be cutting it close - but you can't force a person to continue to work if they just can't. If he doesn't retire, I do fear he'll have a heart attack with all the anxiety he is having. I just wish he would make a freaking decision and then stick with it.
It will all work out. His retirement date (tentative) is the first Friday in Jan 2020. That's probably when I will drop dead from all of his stress that I tend to keep to myself (except for this blog)
Lord, help me!
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