Life is still great but for the last few months, for no reason at all, I've been a little down. Not big time clinically depressed just not feeling as GREAT as I was a couple of years ago. I was just to the point, where I thought I would start weaning myself off my anti-depressants. Now I'm thinking, perhaps I may need a new one or UP the dose. Neither is appealing to me. I'll wait and see but don't want to wait too long and it get worse and get into the black hole. It is a wait and see.
In a few weeks we are going to Alabama to see my brother (from another mother.) and his family. It will be HOT and HUMID. I hope we hit a cool spell. I also hope it gets me out of this funk I am in.
This week I went to see the orthopedic about my knees. I have arthritis and my left knee is the worst. I'm looking at a partial to full knee replacement. Not now but in the near future when that knee decides to deteriorate even more. I'm sad, mad and disappointed in myself. Isn't that the silliest thing you ever heard? I don't mind getting older as long as I can still do the things I love. Walking and hiking has not been on my agenda this summer. Oh I walk, but my knee ends up swelling. I swim and I do use the treadmill at the gym. I will start physical therapy. I've gained 10-15 lbs! I'm so bummed and can't seem to shake it. I was always a active person - and to me, losing my mobility would be the worst!
Okay, so I am Over-THINKING some things, and allowing what is going on, to invade my serenity. I need to regain my serenity.