Friday, February 23, 2018
Oh the Struggle
I am not a naturally sweet and kind person. It takes a lot of EFFORT. My instincts are to be sarcastic and bitchy. I'm working hard NOT to be like that in my old age. The old ladies I used to look up to as a kid, were the cute little old ladies. I liked them because they may be sweet, but deep within them, were fighters. They were strong-willed and could handle anything that came their way without groaning and moaning about it. That's how I want to be.
Like I said, it's hard though. People bug me sometimes and my resting bitch face that I inherited from my mom worked great when I had little boys- I could flash them my "mean mommy look" and they knew not to mess with me. Thankfully I never had to lay a hand on them. Now I find when I am standing in the grocery line, the cashier apologizes to me. I'm like, "It's okay" It's that mean look revealing itself once again.
So I've been purposely trying to have a resting smile, on my face. It's almost a habit now but all too quickly I can revert back to my default witch face. I notice how many people smile back at me, instead of clearing a path AWAY from me. Even though on the inside, I'm still in one of those "people bug me moods." If they don't approach me for anything, we're all good. I'm as nice as I have to be.
Friends who know me, say I am sweet and nice but they also know I can handle myself and have when the occasion arose.
What about you? What is your default resting face? Are you sweet and nice? Or should I run when I see you?
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