|Yearbook photo of me in Sophomore year|
Hopefully, I got off my chest, all that was bothering me about bullies. Never thought a photo of my former HS enemies would do that to me. Now I need to move on. But it does go to show, we never truly forget.
The last few days, I have wondered; what if I had handled it all differently? What experiences would I have had instead of the ones I did have? I was a quiet, introvert before but it really cemented into me, how much I did not like people during those years. I used to tell my mom, that I loved animals better than people. I still love animals more than many people, but there are good ones out there. I know I don't do "drama" very good and hate conflict of any kind.
One good thing from it all - I didn't lose my friendship skills to make new friends. They all stuck together in that girl "Rah Rah" cliche, while I did branch out and met others. I found I really liked the stoners - they would hang out in the 2nd-floor girl's bathroom to smoke and I was the only one not smoking. They accepted me. I never felt pressured to take anything or do anything that would make me uncomfortable. They'd just say, "That's cool." I friended many other shy or introverted girlfriends. I had many different types of friends, that I wouldn't of, had it never happened. They were very selective as to who could be around them.
I'm friends on Facebook, with a few of my old school chums, and neighbors. It has amazed me, that many of the Rah Rah girls, would "friend" me when Facebook was starting at- I fell for it a few times, and approved, thinking that we are all adults now- but they never made any comments. I finally just got rid of them.