Thursday, October 05, 2017

You can't go back

Yearbook photo of me in Sophomore year




Hopefully, I got off my chest, all that was bothering me about bullies. Never thought a photo of my former HS enemies would do that to me. Now I need to move on. But it does go to show, we never truly forget.

The last few days, I have wondered; what if I had handled it all differently? What experiences would I have had instead of the ones I did have? I was a quiet, introvert before but it really cemented into me, how much I did not like people during those years. I used to tell my mom, that I loved animals better than people. I still love animals more than many people, but there are good ones out there. I know I don't do "drama" very good and hate conflict of any kind.

One good thing from it all - I didn't lose my friendship skills to make new friends. They all stuck together in that girl "Rah Rah" cliche, while I did branch out and met others. I found I really liked the stoners - they would hang out in the 2nd-floor girl's bathroom to smoke and I was the only one not smoking. They accepted me. I never felt pressured to take anything or do anything that would make me uncomfortable. They'd just say, "That's cool."  I friended many other shy or introverted girlfriends. I had many different types of friends, that I wouldn't of, had it never happened. They were very selective as to who could be around them.

I'm friends on Facebook, with a few of my old school chums, and neighbors. It has amazed me, that many of the Rah Rah girls, would "friend" me when Facebook was starting at- I fell for it a few times, and approved, thinking that we are all adults now- but they never made any comments. I finally just got rid of them.


8 comments:

  1. I did not like HS that much, I was not bullied, but I was not a member of the In-crowd, actually never really wanted to be invited but their attitude still annoyed me. Now as an adult, looking back and seeing some on Facebook, they were basically assholes and some have not changed very much.

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. Once a asshole, always an asshole.

      Delete
  2. My facebook is a bit more cold blooded. Unless they are an ax murderer or catfish, I friend them. Not that these imaginary friends will read my posts or buy an eventual book of mine one day; but, maybe they will. One man who I have no clue how I know. I went to school with him. Keeps a steady flow of some funny content. I do enjoy what people post unless it is politics.

    I was not picked on in high school so much as was the biggest nerd in the world. We are in a category all by ourselves. All A's and some of the most clueless folks walking the hallways. What you don't know really does not hurt you.

    ReplyDelete
  3. They're probably the kind of people who friend anyone and everyone without any thought. I wonder if it ever occurs to them that they were bullies.

    Love,
    Janie

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. I don't believe it does occur to them, that they once were bullies. It just faded into their past and no one remembers except for the ones who have been bullied.

      Delete
  4. Debby, I was outgoing and your typical "rah rah" girl, as you call it haha. But I was friends with not only the popular girls, but the other groups liked me as well cause I was nice. I also had a good friend in each of those groups, so they usually stuck up for me. I didn't let anyone bully me though, and when they tried, I gave it to them twice as hard. I don't think there are labeled groups as much in high school nowadays, which is good, because sometimes people in certain groups are judged unfairly, just because of their image. This is a cute picture of you in high school.

    ~Sheri

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. I won't hold it against you :-)

      Delete

Comments are good - I admit, sometimes I don't respond back, in time for a dialog. I bad! I will TRY and do better. Thanks for understanding.

Popular Posts