Thursday, February 23, 2017
Rainy day blues
Hey all - Just been feeling blah lately. Not depressed just getting overwhelmed with all the wet weather we've been having. When the days are sunny, I want to get outside and start working on the yard, but the ground is a soggy mess, still flooded in some areas. Plus, this darn rainy season is not done yet. Even if it stops raining, we're all still prone to flooding due to warmer temps and snow run off from the mountains.
I've been working out - that helps. I've lost 5 lbs so far. That really makes me feel great.
Next week we're going down to the bay area for a memorial of a really good friend of mine, who passed away last Nov. It's been a couple of years since I've been "home." So I'm anxious in some ways and dreading it in others.
Another good friend of mine, around my age, said she has some mass on her liver and yesterday went in for a cat scan. She's scared and I am too. I've lost all my best friends. the last few years. I hope it is not serious. And you know, that is the thing about friends. The best ones, are the ones you have history with. Right now, for me to find new best friends, is impossible. We have no history and we don't click. You gotta be able to click with someone. Sure, you can find many people to be friendly with...but the real deep friendships, that is rare.
Makes me wonder, why so many have passed on, early. Was it the 60's? Living hard, drinking, doing drugs? What happened? Fortunately I cleaned up my act, early while many of my friends kept it up.
My son Foodie - I love that son but he drinks too much. And he's not getting any younger - it's like TIME to grow up and stop all of that. I believe he might take after his father, which saddens me.
Oh well - what can I do? Absolutely nothing but pray. Oh and BTW, I finally found a church I like. So the last 3 weeks, we have gone back to church. It's small but packed. I hope this one works for me. Since 2008 when we moved up here, I have been having a hard time finding what I had in the bay area.
These dark days, has me doing some deep thinking about stuff - some of it is good, some of it is downright morbid.
Oh God, make the rain go away!
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