Wednesday, February 26, 2014
Being forgiven is a good thing
I am feeling so good right now. A huge burden, has been released and FINALLY I feel FREE. Sometimes, some of us, get into a type of bondage of our own making. It can last years. We can even conjure up, that it was more important than it really was - I don't feel embarrassed at all, that I had to force this release. I did it for me.
I had never been forgiven for something I had done to a person years ago. It would gnaw at me when I would think of it. I felt I had done this person wrong. I thought I had really hurt this person. I hated the idea that I might have hurt someone - I don't like to hurt people. This however, did not mean I want a relationship with this person. I wanted to be forgiven, so I could forgive myself.
It finally donned on me, that I had to do something, BOLD for my own emotional well-being. I am worth it. I had to basically let go of my pride - and ask to be forgiven because it was still messing with my head. Up to this point, I had never been forgiven.
I got butterflies in my stomach, when I saw the email. It was exactly what I needed to see in print.
I was surprised I wasn't even hurt by the harsh-tone. I finally received my walking papers - The person forgave me (of course they just had to say, it was all perceived in my own mind. So be it. I got what I wanted) and that this person never wants to hear from me again. Thank God! We used to say in Alanon, that we can surely forgive someone - but that doesn't mean we have to have a relationship with them.
Little does this person know - they gave me a gift - the gift of forgiveness so that I can now forgive myself.
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