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It's funny how you can get away for a couple of days and come back feeling refreshed. (kinda)
Before I left, I contacted a local SHRINK. So sometime this week, I plan to set up an appointment.
Usually the Husband and I love to sit around, drink our coffee and dream - make plans of what we want to do, but never do. Like when we sit out in the backyard once he comes home from work, we sit and talk about what we would like to do with that "hill" in our yard. Seems every week or so, it is a different plan. When we were camping, we sat around the fire, wine in hand, dreaming and making many plans.
I know that I need to organize myself better. Since I am no longer working, I feel like I just float, during the day, hitting walls. And that does not work for me. I need some kind of structure. I need a flexible schedule that I pretty much follow. If not, I get too overwhelmed and can't focus.
You know, the best time in my life (one of them) was back when the Husband and I were downsizing and living in our 34 foot RV - we did this for 4 years and had a blast! It does get old and those one-butt kitchens can really be annoying. I was ready to move on but it does seem life was so much simpler back then. Now our life seems more stressful. With the adult sons living here and I just can't seem to find my place. I need to make a "quiet" place for myself. Since the Husband works a 3rd shift, it can't be in my bedroom, during the day. So I don't know....maybe it's not a physical place - maybe it's only a mental place (and no not a Mental Institution) If you can't find a place physically, you need to find your own peace from within.
That's what I am looking for. I sure hope I can find it.