|my dad as a little boy|
Anytime, there is a family event, ie: a pregnancy, death, marriage etc - I can't help but think of those family members that are no longer here. With my niece, pregnant with a baby boy, my sister and I can't help but think of our folks. It was a strong feeling yesterday we both had - happy but a little sad that they are not around to experience this. With my dad, he died naturally from a massive heart attack at the age of 75. However, Mom choose to end her life at age 74, a year after her beloved passed.
I still have some anger toward her, for doing that. In some ways, I can understand it from her point of view - but I can't hang with it, in regards to what it has done to my sister and I. All the good work, my mom did as a mother, was undone in some ways, by a shot to her head! She was healthy and she would of still been around to see this. I am sure of it.
Even my niece mentioned them - wishing that they were around; especially "Grandma."
Oh well - can't dwell on it, or it will get into your mind and set you crazy. It is, what it is, isn't it?
So we have a boy - my niece told me they will probably name him after his father. I'm not sure what his name is - She told me, but it went in one ear and out the other. I think it is Shimir. but everyone calls him "Poc" so if they name the baby after Dad, he would be, Tupoc. (I KID YOU NOT)
Now my sister asked if they could at least, fit in our dad's name somewhere within that name. Hmmmmm lets see how that would sound:
Shimir Tupoc John Madophyahglsiyumur ( I can't remember the last name - its long)
I THINK my niece was kidding about naming the baby Tupoc....I think.