|I want to dream again...|
Some of you who have been following me for some time - know that I can get moody and I do worry and obsess about things that are totally out of my control. I hate that about myself. Seems the older I get, the more I worry.
So today, once again, I decided I need to just STOP IT. I've had my 3 days of venting and it does me no good.
I miss my friends -
I have few good friends up here. It's been 5 years and I know it's me.
So today I thought I would call someone - just to talk. Ha, the one time I decide to do that, everyone is gone! So I left messages which I usually won't do and now am kicking myself because they will all call back when I am back to being in my "People Bug Me Mood". Oi Vey!
I think I am going to have to find a new doctor regarding my ongoing battle with depression and such. While I am NOT in a deep depression, I am still not right. I have no motivation. I still don't have energy. I dwell on the negative. I worry. I don't want to do anything. But I am not feeling happy or content. I think I need new meds or something. It is really keeping me from living life to the fullest. I know that. I do go UP up up and then I come crashing down.
So if you are a prayer warrior, keep me in your prayers. If you are not, just think good thoughts - I'll take those too. I am feeling very hopeless.
Maybe that camping trip will be good for me. Sitting around here is NOT.