This is my contribution to the Pity Party Link Up for February. Read about it here http://lorihokie.blogspot.com/2013/02/february-pity-party-link-up.html
Whoa, you ever say that to yourself - that you are a total waste of breath and that you are a loser? I try not to, but at times, that inner voice plays that tape for me over and over and over again. So today I am contributing to the monthly pit party rant. Only I don't really feel the passion of my pity this morning - I shall muster up something. :-)
Sometimes I think I am a loser. Or that I was born under a bad star or moon - or that God loves everyone else - except for me and He likes to see me suffer. (My loyal readers know what my "triggers" are so I am not going to go there at this time)
It just seems nothing ever goes right - there is always something that can go wrong. Sure I ride life, like a big wave and manage to stay afloat but I get so tired of it all. Nothing is ever PERFECT in my life.
Why am I a loser?
- I don't like to work real jobs
- I lack inner motivation - no get up and go
- I'm too much of a introvert
- I can't seem to finish many of my projects
- chronic depression that never really goes away
- I waller in my stinkin-thinkin at times.
If only I could make some money doing the things I absolutely love and enjoy. But NOoooooooo that would make too much sense and be too easy for me.
My life = struggle - struggle - struggle.
The key for me is: When will I ever be a success in my own eyes?